It is a hard battle. I have been divorced for nearly 10 years, and it still affects me. It wouldn't be so bad if he didn't always try to blame me for everything, including my former live-in boyfriend's death, who died from a fatal asthma attack.
I worry I will never be free. I can block him. I can never talk to him. But the years of emotional abuse is never going away. I wished I could erase it, but it's become part of me.
I try to share my story often to let others know they aren't alone. It also helps me process my emotions and not be angry about them. My job now is to shield my kids from it as much as possible.
I am so sorry you are going through this too.